Recovering

My friends laughed at me.They laughed at my stupidness that i became upset because of a girl,become dispaired just because of a girl who doesn't like me at all.

'Why are you so stupid that getting yourself into a girl that doesn't like you at all?''Don't give up just because of a fish,there are fish in the sea.''Find a new target la...'

Wake up myself.

I am doing my best to forget her.But it takes time for me to recover.

Recovering...and waking up...

Forget the past

One week vacation.Staying at home but doing nothing.

I cannot imagine how weird i am.I just got many things to do before the vacation.

Why did i do like that?Just to forget her.

I want to get myself into tonnes of work so that i won't have even a little time to recall her.

But what am i doing now?

My mind will fly to her when i am free.

Working,working and working...studying,studying and studying...Why do i need to suffer like that?

'You think about her all the time,but does she think about you even a minute?'

What should i do???

Rejected finally. It is in my expectation.

Confess without too much preparations and lack of understanding between us, are my causes of failure, i think.

Friends surrounding told me not to give up, but i made the mind to forget her.

Why?

There are too many 'why' in my mind recently.

Why i become sad because of her?

Why she doesn't accept me?

Destiny.

That is the answer. I admit it.

I love her very much. I admit.

I want her to live happily forever. I admit.

Therefore i give up. Maybe i am not her Mr right.

Hold her hands or give away...your true love or a wish.

Hope she can get her true love soon...

Outside the window

There is a window in each room in our hostel. It is also the only side we can observe the life outside, or else we need to walk down stair to get a close look. Looking out from window in our rooms is the only way we be the outside observer.

When i have nothing to do, especially in afternoon, i will stay in my room. Sitting beside the table, looking at the road just in front of my block. The window in my room faces a road. There is a tennis court and futsal court beyond the road. A lot of college students will play sports there in every evening. However, nobody will be there especially in hot afternoon and on rainy day.

Looking outside, it is more on waiting. Waiting for someone to pass the road, to make some noise so that it can bring life for the 'standstill' afternoon. Perhaps i am persuaded by curiosity, whoever passed the road, i will approach the table to see who they are. Whether i know them or not.

Looking out from window, observing people's beings, and waiting for the next to walk past.

June...Another working month

School holidays are going to over soon. The kids are going back to school soon too. Then my work will be getting more and more...endless work...

My work became messy during the school holidays. That was because the kids came back regardless their ages. I could not use the work that i prepared before as they came together into my class...Oh my God!!! I even could not control their behaviour!!!

For how long i should go for such suffering life...

May...

They say May is a special month with many special days of celebration.

1st May is Labors day...a worldwide holiday.
11th May is Mother's day...a day with love and gratefulness for the greatest woman in the world,our beloved mums.
16th May is Teacher's day...a day of thankfulness for the people who guide us,bring us through darkness and innocent,teach us the knowledge of the universe,our respectful teachers.
From 24th May till 7th June...mid term holidays, a wonderful period for school children.

However, at the moment we are celebrating those events,there are still many people suffering from hunger,cold,pain and even death. They haven't recovered from the shock of those natural disasters.

This is how the people in Myanmar and China are after surviving from the typhoon and earthquake that took place recently.

You may call it"A Black May".

Even though supplies from all around the world reached the two countries just after the fatal took place,many people still live in darkness. They lost shelters,their family members,their belongings within a short while. We are here feel grateful for the concerns of the world to them.

As we know, a lot of professionals such as rescue army and medical team have reached the two countries to help those victims. Even professional psychologists came together to give counsellings for victims so that they can help them to reduce the harm of the trauma.

May God bless those suffering from the disasters recover from all sort of pain soon...

May those who are buried underground get peace...

My English is good???

That is not the first time for me to ask myself. However i have met few people who have given me assurance to my English proficiency. I am still doubtful with what they said. Am i as good as they said?

The first person who gave me such meaning is a female patient. As i needed to go to her room often,i had more time to talk to her. For each time we chat, we talked in English. That situation lasted for few times until one day, she asked me: are you Chinese?

I replied: of course, i am a pure Chinese! Why ? Am i looked like Malay or else? In order to show that i am a Chinese boy, i translated those words above in Chinese.

She then replied:nolah...i just wonder you talk English like those graduated from English school...

I replied with a shock:no, i came from Chinese school!!!

The second person that i met was a English lecturer.

He is such a friendly man who possesses a great sense of humor. He used to tell me a lot of jokes in his life and share his experience with me. I was so blessed that i had the chance to get lecture from him. He also told me that my English proficiency is even better than those he mentioned.

The third person i met was an engineer who did teach English language in High school.

He is another funny guy who comes with jokes every time. We have chances to talk to each other as i needed to carry out treatments for him. He once asked me:which school you come from?

I answered him:i came from a Chinese school, sir.

He also replied with a shock: you came from Chinese school? But you can speak English well! Your English level is considered good!

I wondered:is it true?

He kept asking:do you speak English at home? Or your parents are English educated?

I replied honestly:no, sir. Both my parents are not highly educated. I don't speak English with my parents.

I still feel that my English level is low compared to other people. There are spaces for me to improve. But, anyway, thanks for their assurance which has added up my confidence towards myself.

Change your mindset...

Revolution...

The world nowadays is coming to a new era. A revolution is taking place in our minds. It means that our old mindset during last century is going to be replaced with a whole new mindset. That is why we say that we are now entering a CONCEPTUAL AGE.

During the last century, which is 20th century or known as the digital age, materialism was priority in people's minds. People believed that physical possessions were more important than the spiritual values.This belief has made many countries developing fast in economy as people would work hard to achieve a comfortable lifestyle. Japan is one of the good examples of that. The Japanese government has put in efforts in developing the country's economy by encouraging people to work hard for the country. The education field was developed by putting emphasis in Mathematics and Science subjects.

However, when we come to the new era, all we did during the last century are not enough to fulfill our needs. This is because our current lifestyle is already enriched with various kind of possessions. People now are looking for the hidden values behind the things. We want more than that. We start to think about the meaning of life.

That is why more and more people, especially those from developed countries in Europe go for meditation. They want to get the answer through "deep-thought". That is what the religious cultivators at ancient time did to get the answer about life and death.

The desire to get the hidden values behind things is only one of the features of this Conceptual Age.

I feel i am not myself...

My mind is quite messy today. No, it has been messy for a long time. I found a lot of thoughts in my mind and i really don't know where i actually lay. I almost lost myself...

I know i want to be a great person but at the same time i also find out a lot of shortcomings on myself. I really don't know what i actually have. Where my values should lay?

Hahaha...self confidence, what is that? Do i have this kind of thing? I fear to get around with people as i don't know how to become part of them. I will feel nervous for each time my friend call me for gathering. Especially when i need to talk to people, i will worry that our topic of conversation will be running out fast and at that time we all will stay quiet.

They say most of the social skill lay on listening to what people talk, but how should i make people talk a lot to me even though i am ready to listen to what they are willing to say. Tony Buzan said the ratio of listening to talking is 2:1 as god only gave us a mouth but a pair of ear!!!

When would i be able to overcome the fear??? I really don't know what should i do to improve my social skill....help me,God...

New life coming....

Hahaha...a new life will come to me after few more days. My life of being a physiotherapist assistant will be ended and i am going to lead teaching life!!! Guess what will be my new job......
DON'T WANT TO TELL YOU!!!hahaha...

After working for more than three months, it is really enough for me. I really got more than i expected at the beginning. For example, i could learn Japanese words from Japanese patients. Like the sentence"you're welcome" in Japanese is"do-itoshimaste","are you feeling well" is "kimochiyi". I got free Japanese language class there!!!

Dealing with patients from various field is really a challenging work. If you don't have the enthusiasm in that field, you will have lost your passion to work within a short period. It's just like me. This is not i want to do in my future and that is why i quit. However, some people may think not to take it too serious as it is just a part time job.

3 months are enough for me as i know what the job actually is. I find myself didn't really enjoy the job and that is why i wish to change my working environment.

Enjoy your work!!!!

Just A Few Steps...

I sat in front of the computer in our department to see how many patients hadn't come for their treatment after coming back from my lunch break. Suddenly my boss came to me and called me: hey, come to help me to get Mr.T walk. Come! I quickly followed him to go out after replying him.

Mr.T is our 'old patient'. He is a man in his about 30. The man like him should have a active lifestyle, but not him. He can only sit on his wheelchair,stare at everyone who talks to him. He lost the ability to talk, walk and manage his daily life. Even a simple movement like lifting up his hand is hard for him.

When we came to him, he already stood up under the efforts of a few therapists. However, it seemed that he was not interested in walking exercise.

My boss came to his back and held his back. That is the most important position as most of the patient's body weight will be supported by the person holding his back. I just went to his right side to hold his shoulder. There would be total four people to help Mr.T to walk including my boss and me.

Mr.T looked less aggressive today.However it seemed that he prefer jumping forward to stepping forward. That was also hard to make him stand straight as he kept pushing his body forward. He even put his head on my shoulder and just stopped there.

We kept persuading him to walk. Sometime he might stand straight and stepped forward. I was so happy that i couldn't describe my feeling when he put his left or right foot forward. When he put his head on my shoulder, i just kept telling him: Stand straight...stand straight...stand straight and i kept praying in my heart: May God save and bless the soul in this suffering body...please make him walk...

We all put a lot of efforts in making him walk. When he put his left foot forward, we needed to stepped on his left foot to prevent him from jumping and we also needed to keep giving him hint to put his right foot forward. Sometime he might just lay without any sign and we needed to lift him up again. Sometime he might also released his hand on the walking frame and i needed to make sure that he held tightly the walking frame.

Once he just put his foot forward, i counted in my heart: one...then two... He was managed to make about 7 to 8 steps on that day and we needed to put him back to his wheelchair. I realized that i sweat after putting him back. It seemed we need a lot of strength in making him walk. Even though my shoulder was painful, i was satisfied with what i did.

May God bless the suffering soul in that body...

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

Happy Chinese New Year For All!!!

Time really flies. Our new year celebration just passed for a month and we have to get ready for the Chinese new year celebration now.

My mind even hasn't got prepared for this celebration. I even don't have planned any activity for this new year period. What should i do during new year??? Aiya, don't need to think too muchlah. Just stay at home, watching television and waiting for others to bring me angpau.

On the day before my new year holiday, i still went to work. I was the only Chinese that came to work there on that day. Everyone came to greet me after working. The staffs in the department even gave me some snack as my new year gift. The gift came with a greeting card written with the staffs' signatures and their new year's greeting words. The word's all came from non-Chinese staffs. I was so surprised that i didn't know what to do at that moment they gave me that pack of snack. Their acts really touched me.

Their cares really warmed my heart.

Persistence

Tell you a story...

This is an ancient Greek story. A man in heaven was sent to world to do his punishment as he have done something wrong in heaven. The punishment for him is: Take a stone uphill everyday.

However, each time when he took the stone to the top of the hill, the stone would slide to the bottom of the hill. No matter for how many times he have tried, he still failed to bring the stone to the top of the hill.

That was the punishment God wanted to give him: Infinite failure. That was to torture his mind so that he would live forever in suffer. At the beginning, the man still felt upset with the failures. Yet, he soon realized that he couldn't let himself live between success and failure because that was meaningless for him. He should take the stone without any desire to succeed. No matter how was the result, he still needed to take the stone to the hill. That was the spirit of persistence.

Days by days, God finally realized that the punishment couldn't have any effect on him. It couldn't penalize him anymore. God had to release him from the punishment and allow him to return to heaven.

What does the story actually want to tell? What do we understand by the term 'persistence'?

I am sure that everyone used to have their own dreams. However, only a few of them can really realize their dreams and the others give up half way. I am sure that everyone must have put efforts for their own dreams. Yet, do the efforts last till the end?

When we start to dream something and put our plans in work, we may work hard at the beginning. What we want is:success. However, when we still cannot get anything from our efforts or we cannot get the result that we want, we may feel disappointed and we ourselves may halve our efforts. That is what the man from heaven experienced at the beginning he faced failure in taking the stone uphill.

Didn't he hope that he could take the stone uphill without facing any difficulty? Didn't he hope success? Actually,he did. What he did was not putting too much attention on the result he wanted to get. He just put all his efforts in taking the stone uphill. He just did what he needed to do.

If we put too much attention on the result that we want to get, we will get ourselves into the wheel 'success' and 'failure' until we cannot put attention on our efforts. Our emotions will be easily affected by any change. Even a small failure can make us disappointed.

Another story...

A hunter walked into a forest to hunt some animals. When he stepped into a bush, he saw a fox laying on there. The fox looked like waiting for something. The hunter approached to the fox and asked it: What are you doing here?

The fox replied: I am waiting for a rabbit. It used to passed here. I want to get that as my food.

The hunter stood there for a while and then left.

On the following day, the hunter went to the forest again. He still saw the same fox laying there. He approached the fox and then asked: What are you doing here?

The fox looked at him and then replied: I am still waiting for the rabbit. The hunter didn't say anything about this and then left.

On the third day, the hunter still saw the same fox laying there when he went to the forest. He walked to the fox and then threw a dead rabbit to it and said: This is for you!

The fox suddenly stood up and threw the dead rabbit to the hunter and said to the hunter angrily: Do you think i am a beggar? Do you think my purpose of staying here for three days is just waiting for your dead rabbit?

The hunter felt a little strange with this fox and then asked: Don't you stay here for waiting for your food? I just don't want you to die of starvation.

The fox stepped forward and said: Right! I stay here for waiting for my food. Although i still get nothing for three days, i didn't regret at all. You have to know: only human will hope for success like a beggar from their usual mistakes. In my term, there is no success and no failure at all. The only thing for me is:waiting.

The hunter then asked: Will you still feel satisfied if you get nothing from your efforts?

The fox said: Although i get nothing, i still can enjoy the fresh air surrounding me. I can enjoy in watching the beautiful scene during spring season. They are also what i get from my efforts. I won't get nothing from my efforts. At least i won't regret as i have put in my efforts before.

Do you get what the fox mean?

Frustrations in mind

What do i actually want???

I have thought for this question for a long time. What do i actually want? What do i want in my future? What career do i actually want to get involved? This is very important for me as i am ready to plan for my future now.

Do i want to make a lot of money? I want!!!
Do i want to have more time to stay with my beloved one? I want!!!
Do i want to make my life meaningful? I want!!!
Do i want to gain respect from others? I want!!!

Yet, can i get them all?

I have a lot of problems playing in mind recently. I am tired of facing them. What can i do about this? In order to solve the problems, i have to list out all those problems first and then analysis them one by one.

My first problem: future. What should i choose for my future career? What should i study in tertiary institution?

I have used a lot of time to think about this, but what is the answer? My interest lays in different fields. I still need time to discover myself, but not just spend time in thinking. I shouldn't worry too much about that.

My second problem:love. I suddenly fear that she will come back one day and introduce her boyfriend to me. What can i do about this? Put all this in action!!! Show her your sincerity! Go for her!!!

After thinking about this, my mind gets relief. In fact, this is a good way of managing problems.

Sometime we may feel frustrated with all this kind of problems. However, we have to stay calm all the time so that we won't get lost. By listing all the problems, we ourselves may feel a little relief as we may think that: actually my problems are not as trouble as my thought.

This is because we have the full view of all the problems.

A real story...Courage

This is a real story. The setting of the story is not mentioned.

A boy whose parents have passed away lived together with his only sister. She is his only close relative. Therefore the boy considered her sister was more important than himself. He loved her sister much more than loving himself.

Unfortunately, the sister was infected a kind of disease. She needed other's blood to save her life. Although the doctor promised them not to collect money from the operation, they still couldn't afford the expense of blood. The expense of blood was too high for the young boy. He really needed the blood to save her sister's life or else she would die.

As the only close relative of the girl, the boy's blood group was similar to his sister's. His sister's life was really on him at that moment. He was the key of survival for his sister. Yet, did the boy really have the courage to bear the pain during the blood transferring process? He started to hesitate.

After thinking for a while, the 10 years-old boy promised to donate his blood to his sister.

During the process of blood transferring, the boy didn't look to fear. He just kept smiling to his beloved sister. Once the process finished, he asked the doctor: may i know for how long i still can be alive?

The doctor was stunned with this question. He knew what the young boy was thinking about. In the boy's thought: he would die if he transfered blood to his sister. However he still had the courage to transfer his blood to his sister. At that moment when the boy made up his mind to transfer his blood, he was ready to sacrifice himself to save his sister. The courage was rather seen even on adults. Yet, it came from a 10 years-old boy.

The doctor held the boy's hand tightly and said: Don't worry about that, nobody will die after transferring blood to others.

The boy stared at the doctor surprisingly and said: Really? So for how long can i live?

The doctor replied him with a warm smile: You are very healthy. I think you can live for 100 years!

The boy suddenly became serious and showed his hand, the hand which was used to transfer blood just now to the doctor and said:Now i need you to distribute my blood equally for us so that
we both can live for 50 years!

Everyone cried after hearing that word. They were touched by the courage of the boy. They also witnessed the faithful side of mankind through the sincere promise of the children.

Struggles In LIfe...

WHY i need to struggle for life every day...

Every morning when i wake up, i must STRUGGLE with my tiredness or else i cannot wake up.
Every day when i go to work, i must STRUGGLE with time or else i will get late.
Every day when i take train to my working place, i must STRUGGLE with people or i else i cannot get into the fully-packed train .
( the scenarios repeat when i come back from work)
When we are studying, we need to STRUGGLE with others to get a better position in class.
When we come to work, the STRUGGLE becomes more especially when we really want to get promotion in job.
When we come to love, we must STRUGGLE with our competitors to win his or her heart.( this is a MUST or else you will be regretful for your rest of your life!!!)
STRUGGLE, STRUGGLE, STRUGGLE!!!
STRUGGLE,STRUGGLE,STRUGGLE!!!

It is undeniable that we will have to keep struggling if we want to stay alive in this world. This is the rule of life.

Only those struggles make our life meaningful. Why do i say such word?

We will praise the courage of a patient who is suffering from cancer fight for his or life. He or she is struggling for life. Life is the only aim for he or she to struggle. What else you want to fill in his or her life beside struggles?

They take life as their priority because this is their only hope to struggle with cancer.

We also go through the same process as them every day.

We may take life as our priority because this is our only hope to struggle with challenges in life.

If you are really going through some hardship in life and you are tired of struggling, what i want to say is: Keep your efforts and don't ever give up easily.

If you really lost hopes due to the failure in struggling, try to look for hopes from those failures.

That is what we call: Life.

Doing physiotherapy...Interesting???

Electrotherapy

Normally people will ask 'What are you doing in your work?' when you answer them you work as physiotherapist. I now work at a department known as 'Electrotherapy Department' under Rehabilitative Services. We here have a lot of medical devices run by electricity for conducting treatments for patients.

In Rehabilitative Services, there are two departments: Electrotherapy Department and Neuro-Spinal Rehabilitation. Normally patients come with doctor's voucher to seek treatment here. We will do relevant electrotherapy on them according to doctor's suggestions. After that, the patient may have to proceed to Neuro-Spinal rehabilitation to do rehabilitative exercises under physiotherapist's supervision.

I myself work at the Electrotherapy Department recently. There are a few types of treatment that we will do for patients such as Ultrasound treatment, Intermitten lumbar Traction(ILT), Intermitten Cervical Traction(ICT), Infrared treatment, Interfarential(IF) and etc. The picture above shows that i am doing one kind of treatment for a patient. The treatment is known as 'Ultrasound Treatment'. The mechanism of the treatment is to emit sound wave with high frequency to patient's painful part so that it will help to relax the muscle and hence help to improve blood circulation. Normally we will do the treatment for ten minutes for each patient and we will normally set the intensity of the ultrasound on our own.

Neuro-Spinal Rehabilitation

As i mentioned above, those patients need to do further treatment have to proceed to this department. We here got a few handsome and beautiful professional physiotherapists will help patients to do exercises like pulling, cycling and other exercises. For other simple exercises like knee, ankle and back exercises can be done in Electrotherapy Department but don't need to proceed to Neuro-Spinal Rehabilitation.

That is the room for the physiotherapists to do treatment for patients. Normally patients will be asked to lay on bed to do exercises or else they will be asked to do 'gym' exercises in the gym room outside.

Life As Physiotherapist...Hectic But Funny

14th Day of Work...

Time really flies. I have worked for 14 days in hospital as physiotherapist. My fellow senior, Ms Tan will be leaving today. She is a kind and friendly girl who once taught me a lot of things when i first came to work in the hospital. Thank you so much!!! Actually, the people over here are kind and friendly. They teach me a lot of things so that i can handle my work fast and easily. Thanks for you all!!!

However, i found the job boring and tiring initially. I had no mood in doing my work as my mind was not there. My mind changed once i read a book written by Ordison Marden about the success story in life. I still remembered what was written in that book: Make each work as your pace for future. You are working for your future but not only for now. The sentence looked simple but it really wake up my mind. Yeah, i have to work hard no matter how hard is the work, how boring or how tiring is the work. Work with my full enthusiasm and make the work as my future pace!!!

Hence, after that, i go to work happily. I say 'Good Morning' with my smile to everyone. I keep telling my self that i have to bring warmth, joy and love to people all around me with my smile.
I work with my full heart every day till i don't feel as tired as before.

Work With Enthusiasm!!!

Keep A Smile Every Day!!!!

Penang Trip...What a wonderful trip!!!

20/12/2007, A Wonderful Night

Our youth club has planned a trip to Penang long time ago. The aim of the trip is to enhance the relationship among the members beside teaching us life's philosophy. This is because our members come from different places, we have very little time to get know to each other. Therefore, they gave us this opportunity to know more about other members there.

Initially, i myself had no mood to join the trip as i felt that i couldn't face her. I didn't know what should i said to her when i met her...i felt so tired that i didn't want to talk to others when we were in the bus to Penang at 19/12/2007 night. I spent the night to look at the sky outside the bus window, i kept asking myself: How? How could i face her? I took out the Christmas gift that i wanted to give her from my bag. How could i give her this?

Once we reached there in 20/12/2007 morning, i kept looking for her. I didn't know why i still wanted to look for her even though i fear to see her. We had classes and games along that day. It looked like the team that i joined had no luck in playing games. We lost in almost all the games. I didn't put too much attention in games as my mind was on her along that day.

I felt that i lost all hopes at that night as i had not found any chance to talk to her. i didn't know what to do and no one could help me. They were all busy talking and playing games with their friends and i looked like isolated. I took photos on everyone to divert my attention on her...but i still didn't know i was going to the turning point.

I found that a group of my friends were playing a special game. The game was known as 'true words and great adventures'. They put a bottle on a round table and let it spin. They would see who would be pointed once the bottle stopped spinning and then gave him or her relevant punishment. The punishment was such as asking you:which girl or boy in our trip group that you like? You had to answer it honestly or else you would get 50 pimples on your face!!! Wah!!! What a cruel punishment!!!

However, i found it interesting and joined them without hesitating more. I saw those pointed by the bottle was forced to answer sensitive question like which girl or boy you like over here. I started to be afraid of playing the game and once i made my mind to come out, the bottle pointed at me after spinning.

Once they asked me what type of punishment i wanted, i still remembered that i answered calmly: i choose Great Adventure as i think it is very boring to keep asking who you love and who you like. As one of them has known that i like the girl, she suggested a punishment for me: you go to say 'I love you' to her loudly.

I stunned for a while as i didn't know what to do after this. I asked myself: is this a chance for me? I stood up and then walked to her. They all were shocked with my courage and kept following me to know what would i do. She was talking to somebody at that moment. When my 'followers' walked to her, they shouted: You all! Stay back! You, Stand there and don't move!!! I was standing beside her at that time. She was also shocked and didn't know what to do.

Suddenly, i stepped forward and took her out and then yelled at her: I love you! I love you! I dared not look at her when i was telling out these words, but i knew that she must get shock. I just heard claps after i told out the words.

Time looked like standstill for me at that time. I suddenly felt like i had accomplished something that was impossible for me. I even didn't realize that everyone came to me to know how could i do it and how did i feel. At that time the only thing came to my mind was:Give her the Christmas gift!!! I didn't want to think too much about that or else i would feel regretful forever!!!

Once everyone 'retreated', i just went to her and then asked her: Would you mind coming with me for a while? I have something to give you.

She hesitated for a while then answered: What you want to give me? Or can you do it on the other days?

I said: Perhaps we don't have too much time to talk with each other, so i wish i could give it to you now.

We then walked together to my bedroom and i asked her to wait for a while outside my bedroom. After for a while, i came out with the gift and then came to her and said to her : Merry Christmas. She was shocked with that surprise but i saw that she was quite happy with that. I added: I have promised you that i will give you something during last time you went to KL, so i just keep my promise...

She replied me with her cheerful smile and with her sweet 'Thank you'. I felt like i just accomplished another 'mission impossible'. She still kept saying 'Thank you' to me when she left with the gift. Wah!!! What a wonderful night!!!

New Life For Me...

After that night, i felt like i got a new life. Perhaps it came from the power of love. I really put my full heart in every games we played. Everyone was shocked with my sudden change. It looked like ' i am back'. We almost won in every games we joined until we became the champion team!!!


The photo above was taken once we won the last game.

This photo was taken after we finished the last two games.

I really enjoyed the trip as it gave me new life to breath. I get new life from that.

Thanks God!!!!

Fall In love...

IT was a special night...i don't know when i start having feeling with her. It is her, even though i have seen her for a few times, i still couldn't remember her face. Perhaps the girl like her is too common everywhere. But all start from that night...

Gathering Night

We were all sitting around a long table, having a dinner. She was there,sitting beside her sister, finishing her food gently. I kept looking at her, of course not to look at her directly. She was so attractive that i forgot to finish my food. I tried to get know to her. Actually i have known her before. I was shy to talk to girls. Therefore she didn't have too much memory on me. After that dinner, we all went to the "small Genting" in Ampang. That was the first time for me to go there. I could see a lot of couples dating there, i wished i could bring along my girlfriend to this beautiful place in future. When i thought about this, I stared at her for a while. She was playing game with other members at that moment.

She looked happy with the game because i kept teasing her when i came in the game. I tried to impress her with my sense of humours. That was how i get approach to her. We got chance to know each other. At that moment i told myself that : I must get her hand phone number!!!

On the following day, we all went to National Zoological Park. I haven't gone there for a long time. I should feel excited for going there as i would have opportunity to broaden my knowledge. However, my mind was not with me on that day. I kept looking at her throughout that day. I tried to get chance to talk to her. She didn't talk too much on that day as she felt uncomfortable. That was the chance for me to show that i cared about her. She thanked for my care to her.

After coming back from zoo, we all went to have our dinner in a restaurant. At that time i successfully got her hand phone number!!! Thanks god for giving me this opportunity!!!

The Enhancement of Relationship

She keeps staying close with her sister wherever they go. As i know, their relationship is good even though they don't often meet each other. She doesn't look like her sister. She is a quiet girl and doesn't talk too much to others whereas her sister is an active girl. I have a strong belief that if i want to win her heart, i have to start from her sister first: enhancing the relationship with her sister first. Although i have this intention, i don't take any action to get close to her sister as i don't want her to misunderstand.

That is her good sister. Initially, i feel that her sister is trying to protect her from me. However, after a few times, i realize that even without her sister, i still find it hard to get to her. We don't have too much to talk when we meet each other. She looks like not to have too much interest to me. We talk more in SMS than face-to-face conversation.

I try to fully utilize the phone number given to get know to her. I kept sending messages to her through phone. I showed my care to her through asking her about her recent life, reminding her to take care of herself, encouraging her in her studies and work hard and etc. I attempted to know more about her by asking her hobbies. She likes to watch series drama, especially the taiwannese drama, acted by young actors. I now are putting efforts in watching this kind of dramas so that we will have common topic to talk during face-to-face conversation.

We kept this for few months. Of course i now still keep this effort as i haven't won her heart yet.

She is younger than me for two years. I find that she have no too much interest in topics about studies, thus i tend to find topics that will cheer her.

I still keep this effort beside showing her my sincerity by asking her recent life through SMS. I won't give up easily as long as she hasn't accepted me as her boyfriend.